Wicked turmoil in my head, won’t let me sleep – can’t go to bed
Thoughts afloat, images fly, I stop and wonder If I am on ground and soaring in sky
I thin string probably holding me down; must hold on to it, else I will drown
Wonder what’s keeping me in a land so far
Joys farfetched or the ache in my heart
Strange feelings creeping in from nowhere that keep me guessing
Ought to wonder and start confessing
The hold of them on me so strong
Can’t shake them off, they seem to prolong
Like a rock sitting on my shoulders, dragging me down
I can’t seem to push up, cannot seem to bounce
I wish to shake it away, and clear the fog
But the thought never leaves me, stuck like a log
It washes away the comfort and quiet
Leaving me in tumult and riot
Skies are dark and damp without a Sun
I know, I know; I am not the only one
Yet the fear is intense and dooming
Like a heartache long and looming
Why can’t the past stop haunting me now
I thought I could move on but how
Life seem to replay the scene
It’s a déjà vu, I know I have been
Surrounded with people and yet alone
Love around, yet it’s a feeling unknown
This wicked turmoil is not letting me sleep
Anytime the thoughts hit me; I weep
Please oh please give me my peace
The tranquility I desire, the contentment I seek
Leave me alone; you! malicious chaos
Please let be quiet, let me pause
To hush the loud uproar
And bring peace to my inner core